A Chill Pill Too Many

hahah

2011-01-08T12:47:00.001-05:00

9:34 AM me: hahah you're a jerk

___: youre a caterpillar

9:36 AM me: hahahah

you win.

7 minutes

9:44 AM ___: Can i call you Chicken wing

9:45 AM me: ummmmm

why?

9:47 AM ___: i like it

and you can be my little chicken wing

2011-01-08T12:16:00.003-05:00

"So come with me, where dreams are born, and time is never planned. Just think of happy things, and your heart will fly on wings, forever, in Never Never Land!"

Grooveshark

2010-03-11T15:51:00.002-05:00

I think it's safe to say I'm a music fiend. I am a huge Pandora fan, but sometimes my tastes are off the wall and I really want to hear a specific song at a specific time.

http://listen.grooveshark.com/#

Grooveshark let's you search for a song and stream it right then and there. You can create and save your own playlists. There aren't annoying ads that interrupt music. But sometimes certain songs are hard to find or it's not the version you want to hear.

I know I sound like an ad, but my friend introduced it to me and it's wonderful.

Actual Texts

2010-02-15T22:23:00.003-05:00

I should probably be offended, but instead I find this exchange amusing / borderline endearing. Friday night, my friend and I decided to go out. We were going to someplace neither of us had been to. Of course, I had to ask him about attire.

g: so. um. how am i supposed to dress?
b: dress well. if you're not dressed yet... we can't be friends.
g: calm down. i was just trying to figure out how good i need to look. =p
b: you're with me, so as good as possible. now hurry your ass up. i'm almost at your house.

Some might say I should be upset. But if there's one thing I enjoy in certain friendships, it's arrogant, playful fighting.

This one is for the ladies.

2010-02-03T12:44:00.002-05:00

Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. Give her sperm she will make a baby, give her a house she will give you a home, give her groceries she will give you a meal, give her a smile she will give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what she is given. So if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a TON OF SHIT!!

Best. Sleeping. Bag. Ever!

2009-12-04T11:35:00.004-05:00

Attention Nerds, Star Wars enthusiasts, and lovers of all things awesome:

This is, by far, the most incredible sleeping bag I've ever seen.

http://www.thinkgeek.com/geektoys/plush/bb2e/

It even has a light saber zipper pull!!!! If you don't understand the reference, please go watch "The Empire Strikes Back". Even if you do understand the reference, I won't judge you if you want to rewatch the Star Wars movies.

Unfortunately, they're back ordered. ::sad face::

Haven't Met You Yet :: Michael Bublé

2009-12-02T11:07:00.002-05:00

I'm not surprised
Not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times,
I stop keeping track.
Talk myself in
I talk myself out
I get all worked up
And then I let myself down.

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid that I'll give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

Mmmmm ....

I might have to wait
I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing
And the other half's luck
Wherever you are
Whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And baby your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

Mmmmm ......

And somehow I know that it will all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid I'll give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right
And we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

Mmmm .....

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you kid I'll give more than I get
Than I get than I get than I get

Oh you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh promise you kid
To give so much more than I get

I said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love .....
I just haven't met you yet
Love Love Love .....
I just haven't met you yet

Idea!!!

2009-10-22T11:10:00.002-04:00

I have a gooooood one!! It won't happen for a few years, but I'm going to start to lay the foundation for future opportunities. Wait and see! Sorry to be enigmatic, but keeping it on the DL until I can plan more.

Shameless Plug

2009-07-24T14:47:00.006-04:00

Starscream from the original Transformers cartoon!!!

By: Charles A.
[if you're on twitter, follow him @ IllumDarkness]
Check out his stuff: http://illuminatedarkness.blogspot.com/

My friend Charles is an awesome artist. It's not so much that I commissioned him to do this picture for me for any reason, but this is the story.

Back in undergrad, we worked together and sometimes he'd have his sketchbook in the break room with him. I always demanded he draw me something, but he didn't. After I left Charlottesville, he disappeared from the face of the planet for awhile. He just recently decided to come out from under whatever rock he was hiding and of course, I said he still owed me. So he gave me a choice between Transformers and Super Mario Bros. I chose. And ta-da! Isn't the final product awesome?!?!? Feel free to recommend him, give him props on his work, or just say hi to him ahhah.

THANKS, CHARLIE!!!!!!! YOU'RE THE BEST!!!!!! :D

Quote

2009-07-20T11:49:00.005-04:00

"Don't whine. Don't complain. Don't make excuses."

-Don Meyer, winner of the Jimmy V Award at the 2009 ESPYS
(quoting advice passed down from Coach John Wooden's father)

He's such a great speaker. If you didn't catch it last night, here's a link to the clip: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TTGSCalTjpU.

Congrats Coach Meyer!

Too Funny!!

2009-07-10T10:39:00.003-04:00

Northern Virginia drivers, this is right off the Frying Pan Rd exit on Rt. 28. They're building a bridge there...

This thread is hilarious! I love the questions the author poses to the driver.. How does this even happen!?!

Also, if you go to the third page of the thread, there's another picture that explains why they are saying it's an Asian woman.

Budgeting

2009-07-08T10:31:00.003-04:00

The almighty dollar, what a love/hate relationship I have with you.

I've realized that since summer started, I have been pretty bad about keeping track of my money. I was good for awhile, but with all the random outings, fun summer clothes, and trips here and there, I started slacking. Part of it was that I didn't want to come to terms with my summer-induced reckless spending habits and part of it was that I got lazy. Either way, I need to be more responsible. For those of you in a similar boat, I'm extending these suggestions, which I will similarly try to enforce on myself.

Use Excel to look at your budget. Categorize how you like to spend your money and allocate your funds appropriately.
Plan ahead and make sure you consider costs that aren't always a part of your monthly budget (like trips or large purchases).
Save a fair amount for emergencies and maybe a small splurge for yourself.
Stick to it! Or try to stay close. This is much easier said than done.
Take advantage of free online budgeting websites. I am personally a fan of expenseview.com and mint.com. Here are my thoughts on the two:

ExpenseView.com
Pros: It's pretty simple. User friendly. Handles all the basics. You create categories, you input your spendings, put in your income, and it provides you your balance. From there, you can see (through numbers and pie charts) what your spending habits are like.
Cons: You have to manually put in every single thing yourself. So if you don't do it often enough, you'll have to backtrack a lot.

Mint.com
Pros: Fairly simple. Instead of putting in everything yourself, you securely provide login information for your online accounts and it will import all your transactions. It will categorize everything for you and allow you to see transactions and trends. It's nice because it will alert you when it is getting close to a bill due date also.
Cons: The categories are not always correct and if you don't catch it, you might think you're not allocating your money well. For me, the page seems busy and cluttered at times. It has a "Ways to Save tab" that will refer other accounts you can open to save money and I'm not really looking to change anything, so it can be a little annoying (haha I was hoping for tips on that tab). And finally, unless I'm dumb and can't find it, there is nowhere to track purchases made with actual paper bills or account for cash that might be in your wallet.

They're both pretty good and I use both because I can be obsessive compulsive, but I think I still prefer the simpler avenue of ExpenseView.

It's not an incredibly extensive list, but I hope this helps. Let me know if you have any other tips to budget or save money.

SMH Moment of the Day

2009-06-24T16:41:00.004-04:00

SMH = Shake My Head

Today I wore makeup. But that is not the reason I am shaking my head at myself.

A coworker said I look nice and asked what the occasion was. I said there was none. She started to tease me and insinuate that this was done for some boy and that I obviously had a date. I wish haha. Despite my denials, she pressed on.

Finally, I told her the sad, sad truth. Last night, I was watching one of those Lifetime movies and it was quite the tearjerker. I decided my eyes looked puffy this morning and thought that makeup would cover it up well. And that, my friends, is why I have on eyeshadow and eyeliner today. A Lifetime movie!!!! SMH.

Horrible.

On the topic...

2009-06-12T12:15:00.008-04:00

...of weight loss...

me: ugh.i need to reinstate eating salads.

Angela: HAHAHHAHAH

yeah dude

i dont think cheese fries are gonna get you very far

me: :(

BUT THEY'RE SOOOOO GOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Angela: I KNOWWW

especially the ones from outback steakhouse

ughhhh

cheese and bacon and ranch dressing

sigh..

if only

we could be... bulimic

HAHAHHAHAh

me: SERIOUSLY. hahahahah

Angela: hahahah or

maybe anorexic

that would be ideal

me: if i didnt hate throwing up so much...

Angela: HAHHAHAHAHA yes exactly

if i threw up quietly

which i do not

me: no.. bc then you wouldnt get to enjoy the food if you were anorexic

Angela: this is true

me: HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH i dont know of anyone who throws up quietly

Angela: we should get internal parasites

me: YES!

now the question is.... how?

Angela: HAHAHAHHAHA

sigh i dont know

lets go to mexico

and lick the floor

im pretty sure that will work

or eat raw pig

me: internal parasite! NOT swine flu!!!!!!!!

ya fooL!

Angela: HHAHHA sigh...

you dont get swine flu from eating pig silly

thats where tapeworms come from

raw pork

HAHAHA

sigh...

FYI: for those of you who don't know us, we're just sarcastic. we're really not stupid enough to go this far, but this convo is amusing. also, we do not condone taking such extreme measures for weight loss. though we joke, it's a serious matter. do it the right way. eating right and working out, the whole shabang.

Count your blessings.

2009-06-04T10:22:00.007-04:00

I've been pretty emo lately. Again. Sheesh, I need to get a hold of myself. I've decided that instead of moping around, I'll think of the things that i am blessed to have. This is a cursory list, but you get the point. Also, I do realize that Thanksgiving is months away, but I'm grateful!

*My health. I can see, hear, smell, taste, and touch. And I'm getting in shape [ish haha]!
*My wonderful family and lot of awesome, diverse friends.
*A great education.. which I need to put to use more often.
*A job - with the economic situation, I am lucky and incredibly thankful.
*To be able to save money by living at home [with a mom who still tries to pack my lunch and do my laundry].
*because my "difficult" experiences have made me stronger.
*because I have been able to travel to many places.
*because I live so close to DC. Yea suburbs! There's so much culture, history, etc. around this area, I don't take advantage of it enough.

I've made the mistake of being jealous of other people's fortunes. I'm going to try to stop this. It doesn't help. It actually makes you feel worse and you just have to realize that what is meant for one person is not meant for another. Someone's blessings are not necessarily yours. And this is why I'm trying to focus on the things that make mine, the Good Life. :)

What are you thankful for? Think about it.

Uh Oh

2009-06-03T10:04:00.001-04:00

Dear wallet,
I'm sorry (in advance).
Love,
Geraldine

Online shopping will be the death of me.

Everybody Knows :: John Legend

2009-06-01T15:48:00.004-04:00

It gets harder every day, but I can't seem to shake the pain
I'm trying to find the words to say, "please stay."
It's written all over my face, I can't
Function the same when youre not here
I'm calling your name and no one's there
And I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy,

I still can't believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess..

Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows
How to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try
One more try
'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

I don't care what the people say
They brought it all in anyway
Baby don't fill up your head with he-said, she-said
It seems like you just don't know
The radio's on, you tuning me out,
I'm trying to speak, you're turning me down

And I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy,
I still can't believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess.

Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows
How to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try
One more try
Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

Oh I wish you'd understand
Oh, just an ordinary man
Listen we'd have known
Everybody knows, but nobody really knows
And I know one day you'll see, nobody has it easy
I still can't believe you found somebody new
I wish you the best, I guess.

Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows
How to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try
One more try
Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IdSyx6r7Gps

I Need to Stop

2009-05-06T13:02:00.006-04:00

I don't know about you guys, but I have this horrible habit.

I've found that sometimes when I wake up mid-dream, I either like it or want to know the ending so badly that I go back to sleep. Very often these are times that I'll wake up on time to start my day and I don't physically feel that I need the extra sleep. But I'll close my eyes and do my best to go back to Dreamland regardless.

And I know that I never really go back to the original dream. A new one usually starts!!

Sheesh. I could do so much in the morning if I didn't do this.. Run. Eat breakfast. Curl my hair. Put on makeup maybe. Yet, I have no idea why I still do this. I'm so ridiculous sometimes.

Good Night

2009-05-03T02:24:00.005-04:00

The Boston Celtics beat the Chicago Bulls to close an incredibly exciting series. [Though we all know that a healthy Boston squad with KG would have ended it in less games by higher margins and fewer OTs. Easily.]

Manny Pacquiao did a number on Ricky Hatton. 2:59. Two minutes. Fifty freaking nine seconds. Done. Over. Knocked the eff out. I'm sorry, Mayweather Sr., what was it you were saying? haha!!! P.S. My mother thinks you owe her $54.99 for the PPV. Thanks.

It's been a good night.

swagger : to conduct oneself in an arrogant or superciliously pompous manner; especially: to walk with an air of overbearing self-confidence.

Some people [especially tonight] can walk around with it.

Day road tripping tomorrow to NYC.

Fun Facts

2009-04-22T12:25:00.003-04:00

Facts for the Hardcore Hip-Hop heads.

I got a kick out of this. Reblogged from Dirrrrty Steve.

Ugh. My life.

2009-04-17T11:36:00.004-04:00

"This phenomenon, known as the “Quarterlife Crisis,” is as ubiquitous as it is intangible. Unrelenting indecision, isolation, confusion and anxiety about working, relationships and direction is reported by people in their mid-twenties to early thirties who are usually urban, middle class and well-educated; those who should be able to capitalize on their youth, unparalleled freedom and free-for-all individuation. They can’t make any decisions, because they don’t know what they want, and they don’t know what they want because they don’t know who they are, and they don’t know who they are because they’re allowed to be anyone they want."

Full Article :: Welcome to Your Quarterlife Crisis

This is pretty long, but it is on point. =/ It's sad how well it describes so many in our generation.

Time to get a game plan together, take action, and turn it around.

Seriously?

2009-04-09T18:01:00.002-04:00

Asians should change their names !?!?

A Texas legislator thinks Asian-descent voters should change their names to be “easier for Americans to deal with."

“Rather than everyone here having to learn Chinese — I understand it’s a rather difficult language — do you think that it would behoove you and your citizens to adopt a name that we could deal with more readily here?” Brown said.

You have got to be kidding me. I know plenty of people [Asians and non-Asians] who have names that are "difficult" but I can't believe an elected official would actually say this and mean it.

Race for the Cure

2009-04-07T12:57:00.001-04:00

Hey everyone!

On June 6, some friends and I are doing the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure. It is to raise money in the movement against breast cancer.

If you'd like to join, it's a 5K [3.1 miles] in Washington, D.C. :)

Also, if you can spare any amount, however great or small, I would greatly appreciate your donation. Or if you'd like to pass this along that'd be great too.

http://www.info-komen.org/goto/gllames

Thanks!

<3

Mosaic

2009-04-01T11:47:00.006-04:00

Well. Abby tagged me, and I was curious as to what would come up. So here we go:

-Go to Google image search.
- Type in your answer to each question.
- Choose a picture from the first 3 images. [I cheated, my pics weren't from the first 3.]
- Use this website (http://bighugelabs.com/flickr/mosaic.php) to make your collage.
- Save the image for use in this note.
- Post and tag your friends. I tag whoever feels like doing this.

QUESTIONS:
1. What is your first name? [Geraldine]
2. What is your favorite food? [Rice]
3. What is your hometown? [Springfield, VA]
4. What is your favorite color? I like a lot of colors. It changes depending on my mood. [Rainbow]
5. What is your favorite movie? [10 Things I Hate About You]
6. What is your favorite drink? [Orange Juice]
7. What is your dream vacation? [Pretty beach]
8. What is your favorite dessert? [Ice Cream!]
9. What is one word to describe yourself? [Wanderlust]
10. How are you feeling right now? [Antsy]
11. What do you love most in the world? Family, friends, everything I am blessed to have [Good Life]
12. What do you want to be when you grow up? [Happy]

Losing My Cool

2009-03-30T13:07:00.011-04:00

I think it's safe to say that I'm a pretty nice person. Sometimes too nice. The few times that I get really upset, I don't often do much. I'm a pretty passive aggressive person. I don't ever really have angry outbursts. But Saturday was kind of bad.

The first party we went to was out of control. Long story, short:: I ended up drenched with beer and jager. After the initial shock, I was seething and my brothers and I were furiously trying to figure out who caused it. I ran outside to find the guy who I thought threw it. But then he explained that it was knocked out of his hands and it made me more angry not to have someone to blame.

Also, it's incredibly annoying that I cry when I'm really angry. And it was so bad that I could barely breathe. My younger brother even let me punch him [a lot] because he could see how badly I needed to hit something. I know I'm a force to be reckoned with, but you really don't want to mess with me and my brothers. Luckily, they were more focused on calming me.

Looking back, I know I definitely overreacted. And as I recapped the story to my best friend, she asked me why I got that mad. I thought about it and to explain:

1. I would've like an apology, right then and there when it happened. I think I deserve that much.
2. I REALLY can't stand cowards who can't own up to what they do. [I don't care if my brothers and I did seem pretty intimidating]. Accountability, people!!!
3. I didn't even have a person at whom I could direct my anger.
4. I spent a fair amount of time trying to look cute and ended up soaked, with sticky hair, smelling like alcohol, and embarrassed.
5. I had a little to drink, which may have heightened my raw emotions.
6. Though it helped when people tried to comfort me, it also reminded me that some fool in the party still hadn't apologized to me.
7. Alcohol in your eyes stings. A lot.

If you were in my place, do you think you would've flipped out too? I just don't know to what extent anyone else might have taken it. I guess I'm just trying to figure out if it was the situation or if I have some hidden anger/rage inside me that I need to deal with.

Anyway, I just really want to apologize for flipping out. Thank you to the people who were right there with me, calming me down. After my anger subsided, I couldn't help but be overcome with emotion. I have the best brothers and friends anyone could ever ask for. I was going back and forth between angry crying and emotional crying haha. Knowing you have so many incredible people there for you, backing you however you need, stopping you from doing something stupid, is such an overwhelming feeling. Especially when you don't think you show your appreciation enough. So thanks, I love you guys.

I <3 Mashups!

2009-03-23T11:07:00.003-04:00

Clipse!!!! Zelda!!!! Brilliant.

::Linked by DJ Julian Franco:::

AIM Buddy Info

2009-03-18T17:16:00.006-04:00

I don't know about you, but back in the day, I was allllll about making sure my AIM Buddy Info was "exciting" or "intriguing" ...Song lyrics. Upcoming events. Anniversary dates. Ambiguous hidden messages meant for stupid boys. Quotes. Little pictures made out of keyboard symbols. Every single possible color AIM would let me use. Extended profiles that would let you see who looked at your info. Links to my Asian Avenue, Xanga, and whatever other pages I had. And play by plays of every little thing I did.

Looking back, I may have been a bit excessive. And I'm not sure why I thought people cared so much. But it's really funny. And some people were interested, it caused me enough drama. I guess that's adolescent self expression for you.

I never look at AIM profiles anymore because I use gchat, but I still really love good quotes. Thanks to meebo, I found this one I really enjoy [compliments of nick is like's buddy info]:

"whoever comes are the right people.
whatever happens is the only thing that could have.
whenever it starts is the right time.
when it's over, it's over."

Alphabet Soup

2009-03-13T11:50:00.009-04:00

So I was bored because tonight's plans were canceled and this is what happened...
[stolen from Sue]

A
- Age: 23 years, but forever young
- Available: technically yes
- Annoyances: not realizing you've run out of toilet paper until it's too late. one word texts like "oh" or "hey". c'mon, at least say "hey what's up?" or "hey what are we doing later? "

B
- Birthday: 11.25
- Best feeling in the world: being happy with yourself and your situation in life. or the exciting butterflies-in-your-stomach feeling.
- Best weather: sunny. high 70s. beachy. but not too humid.
- Been in Love: not sure
- Been on stage: yes

C
- Candy: chocolate.
- Color: changes depending on my mood.
- Continent to visit: all of them!!!!! [minus antarctica]

D
- Day or Night: twilight.. hahah ok, let me stop.. dusk and dawn
- Dance in the rain: definitely. [as long as it's warm and i'm not wearing white.]

E
- Eyes: brown
- Everyone: has a story that will break your heart
- Ever failed a class? : never that

F
- Full name: Geraldine Ida
- First thoughts waking up: "10 more minutes pleeeaaaase!!!!"
- Food: ~~fight!~~ coma!

G
- Greatest Fear: the future
- Goals: live. love. laugh. do good. travel. share great times.. and learn to swim. and shoot a gun. haha
- Get along with your parents?: usually

H
- Hair Color: dark brown and black
- Height: 5'2 and a half.
- Happy: is a relative term

I
- Instrument: guitar and piano.

J
- Jewelry: fun earrings and necklaces.
- Job: should be something you enjoy.

K
- Kids: yes! but dear lord, please not now.
- Keep a journal?: does blogging count?

L
- Longest Car Ride: drives to canada crammed in the car w/ fam
- Love: someday.
- Laughed so hard you cried: all the time.

M
- Milk: 2%
- Movies: good ones.
- Motion sickness?: not really

N
- Number of Siblings: 5
- Number of Piercings: 3
- Number: 3

O
- One wish: is a good song by ray j.

P
- Perfect Pizza: white pizza w/ chicken and broccoli.
- Pepsi/Coke: coke

Q
- Quail: man is... doug funny!

R
- Reason to cry: i try not to think about them
- Reality T.V.: is ridiculous
- Roll your tongue: not really

S
- Salad Dressing: caesar
- Sushi: yes please.
- Skipped school: it happens
- Smoked?: only hookah and black&milds every now and then
- Skinny dipped?: hahahaha
- Sing well?: depends on your definition of well.
- In the shower?: always

T
-Tattoos: peep the one on my back!
-Time for bed: usually around 1230, but lately i've been staying up til 2 or 3 playing video games. how sad.
-Thunderstorms: love 'em
-Twin: trouble.. haha

U
- Unpredictable: some would say i am

V
- Vacation spot: anywhere with a good beach. preferably spain, the west coast, or hawaii

W
- Weakness: kids in my family, good food, chocolate, shoes, and a good looking man who smells delicious
- Worst feeling: emptiness [emotional. of the wallet. of the tummy. etc.]
- Wanted to be a model?: no
- Where do we go when we die?: depends on what we do when we’re alive

X
- X-Rays : nooo! it means i probably messed up my ankle again.
- Ex's: and Os.. =D

Y
-Year it is now: 2009
-Yellow: fever. guys who like me often have it. ;p

Z
- Zoo animal: tiger

LAST PERSON WHO…
1. Slept in a bed beside you? J
2. You went to the mall with? Hayley
3. You went to dinner with? My brothers
4. You talked to on the phone? Mommy
5. Made you laugh? Fernando
6. Hugged you? Gemma
7. Said they loved you? Gemma: "I LOVE YOU SISTERFRIEND!!"
8. Held your hand? Gerard
9. Heart-to-hearted with? Lana
10. You cried over? Some loser

Nerf Guns

2009-03-11T12:47:00.005-04:00

Dick Tracy's Tommy Gun :: Nerf Version

If I had one of these when I was younger, I'm 97.6% sure my parents would hate me. Also, I think they'd be fantastic for battle against the evil doers known as brothers, but it must be awful to go around and try to pick the darts up again.

Coffee

2009-03-10T15:10:00.001-04:00

I don't drink it.

But one day my best friend and I will open our very own coffee shop.

You should stop by.

=]

"Are you okay?"

2009-03-04T11:57:00.001-05:00

A: Morning!
B: Hi, how are you?
A: Good thanks, you?
B: I'm fine, thanks.

That should be it, right? Carry on with the event/life/what-have-you ...Apparently not for me.

Today, after I said "I'm fine," my friend says... "Nooo. You don't look fine. You look sad. Or mad. Or depressed... What's wrong? Are you okay?"

Granted, I am tired because last night I thought it would be a bright idea to stay up late watching movies into the evening. And I'm not wearing any makeup. And maybe I have had some things on my mind, but still. That doesn't mean I want to bring all of that here! Please don't call me out, especially if you can't tell the difference between me looking upset and me looking tired.

I continued to insist that I'm fine. But he won't drop it. C'mon dude, I said I was okay, please don't push it!!!!

If I insist I'm ok... it means one of two things:
1. I'm not ok, but don't want to talk about it [with you or right now, I might later though. And this is neither the time nor the place]. But even this is not common because I don't publicly display my emotions.
2. I'm actually okay. Which is the case today.

And, I feel as though, in general, if someone repeatedly asks you if you're sure you're okay [physically or emotionally], it just makes things worse. You start to think, "Am I okay?" and then next thing you know, all of a sudden you've convinced yourself that, "Well, shit. I guess I'm not okay!" Even if you were totally fine ten minutes before.

On some occasions, I do want people to try and get it out of me.. but those are usually my closer friends. In private. And I think they can tell because I usually follow the "I'm okay" with a strange wail, whimper, sigh, or gross face. Then, you're allowed to pry. But sheesh. If I don't want to talk about it, I'd really appreciate the space and maybe I'll open up later!

Great Weekend

2009-03-02T17:15:00.001-05:00

I'm feeling overly nostalgic.

Be kind..

2009-02-23T15:41:00.000-05:00

for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.

On repeat ::
Street Lights - Kanye West
Unwell - Matchbox 20
The Middle - Jimmy Eat World

Athletic men

2009-02-22T23:53:00.003-05:00

...I love them. :p But I love them even more when they come packaged with a great personality. Example: you add a cheesy smile, incredible dunks, and a goofy demeanor to a talented ball player.. Game over for me. I get all sorts of giggly.

Dwight Howard. SWOONsighSQUEALgushDROOL. However the thought of me [at 5'2] standing next to this 6'11 adonis is laughable. Sad face.

Bittersweet

2009-02-18T14:35:00.001-05:00

Article : Belated pay for Filipino WWII Veterans

Something is better than nothing.. I guess. Don't get me wrong, I am incredibly glad about this. But I still don't think it justifies everything that led up to it. And I can't believe people are still complaining about this being added in the stimulus package.

"The only way to bypass opponents who had blocked payments in the past 'was to put it in a must-pass bill.'"

^^Now that infuriates me. Not only does the government more than owe it to the soldiers who will receive it, but these fools complaining about its passage fail to consider the thousands who didn't live long enough to witness this halfass form of equity.

I miss my grandpa.

Thoughts.

2009-02-13T14:04:00.000-05:00

You can be my prince. // my knight. // You can be my Superman. // Save me, here I am.

After watching "He's Just Not That Into You" and having heart-to-hearts with certain individuals, I've been thinking.

A lot of my friends are guys. Great guys. I love 'em to death. But sometimes they can be such jackasses. No, not to me (usually), because they know better, but to other girls. Girls who actually give a shit [I think]. A lot of times my boys will talk to me about their problems and even though they're my friends, often I can sympathize with the girls. I understand how they hurt. And it seems like these fools never take that into account.

I swear they're good guys. And that’s part of the reason why this pisses me off so much. How many times have they all told me over and over again: "Ger, you just need to find a good guy.. blah blah blah" or some variation of that? What bothers me is that they are so damn hypocritical about it. They sit there and preach to me about finding a “good guy” who won’t treat me like shit. And trust, I want and deserve one and should theoretically find one. But then they say these things then turn around and do the same crap they claim is "unforgivable" when done to me.

Let’s face it, we girls are screwed. Not only are these "nice guys" hard to find (and I’m never really attracted to them), but good guys can and will treat girls like shit too. "Nice" is not 24/7/365. And people/circumstances/things change. It’s how life goes.

I know I've said it before and I'm not afraid to acknowledge that it works both ways. To be honest, if I were a guy, I’d probably be considered shady too. So I don’t know how much I can talk. Neither party is innocent. Girls do their fair share of messed up things to guys. I've heard some incredible horror stories. Eesh. I try to avoid being like that, but relationships are not easy. And frankly, I'm not always nice.

I just try to keep in mind that everyone is looking for that person. The one. If I'm not it for someone, that’s fine. I’ll live. It might hurt at the time, but it won't change how they see me. Conversely, if someone thinks I'm it and I feel otherwise, that's not a feeling I can change instantly.. no matter how much I don't want to hurt them. I know we might be kind of young to think about it, but it’s in the back of our heads, whether we want someone to be that one or just scared because we don’t want to find that one just yet. It’s hard to explain and I’m probably not doing it well. But basically, it’s ok if a guy doesn’t want me, I know another one will. I’m not trying to sound cocky, it’s just true. And the same goes for everyone, someone else will come along. Things happen for a reason and life goes on. Lesson learned. Move on (or try). Sometimes we’re so blinded by our emotions that we forget this.

What bothers me is how some people go about things. Just know and really think about how your actions are hurting someone you supposedly care(d) about. How it makes us feel not good enough or like less of a person. Or makes us feel like our time, effort, and emotions were for nothing. Wasted. Pointless. I know stuff happens, but please be considerate. Lord knows I’m no expert. Who is? But think of how you'd feel if the tables were turned.

My friends aren’t there to be experts. They’re there to be there. To be friends. I know this. And they are just trying to smack some sense into me. But “The heart has reasons that reason cannot know.” Sometimes it’s just really hard to stop feeling a certain way, even when you know it’s bad for you.

Now that I've written the longest post of life, it's clear I have too many thoughts in my head and too much time on my hands. Who knows? I probably shouldn't be talking. I'm selfish and a hypocrite. Things are easier said than done. And you find yourself on both sides of this problem. But I truly believe that it will all turn out just fine if you just let things fall into place. :)

As we all know, the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left; maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right.

Valentine's Day

2009-02-04T13:39:00.001-05:00

I am not a fan. Maybe one day someone will change my mind, but for the past few years (and right now), it's not so much fun.

If you're single, you feel it. And it does not feel good.

If you're in a relationship, there's a lot of pressure. And your wallet feels it. But I suppose this is one of the better situations to be in on this day.

Then there are the people who are "dating" or "talking" or in a fake/pseudo relationship (or something just as complicated). Being in this kind of situation is even worse! It's awkward and you don't know what to do! Do I get my hopes up? Do I get them something? Is it assuming too much to think that I should or shouldn't do something? Ugh.

I haven't had a real valentine since sophomore year of high school. And I felt bad because I didn't want him to be my valentine. Junior and Senior year, nothing. Freshman year of college, my friend's boyfriend brought her single friends candy. That was nice. Second year, nothing. Third year, I get a text and a phone call from a fool in Northern Virginia (while I was in Charlottesville). Last year, I sent a pretty awesome package to Iraq. In return I got an email: "I just wanted to say "Happy Valentine's Day" and sorry I didn't get you anything but I'll make it up to you." Side note:: he didn't.

My thing is, why create such high expectations for this one day? Because Hallmark said so?! The guy should want to do something nice, not because he feels its his obligation because it's February 14th, but because he wants to make me feel special one day. And moreover, I think they should show me they care everyday. But some prove that even that is too difficult.

So I'm bitter. Whatever haha. End rant.

It's frrrreeeezing!

2009-01-28T14:44:00.001-05:00

I'm a glutton for emotional pain. I swear I set myself up sometimes.

The weather doesn't help. Mother Nature can be cruel. Ruining my plans. I miss high school. On days like today and yesterday, I'd be outside playing in the snow. Then after thawing and having warm food, I'd be parked in front of the TV or PS2. Now, not so much.

Anyway, this piece is great. I suggest you youtube it.

P.O.W. :: Alicia Keys
I'm a prisoner
Of words unsaid
Just lonely feelings
Locked away in my head
I trap myself further
Every time I stay quiet
I should start to speak
But I stop and stay silent
And now I've made
My own hard bed
Inside a prison of words unsaid

I am a P.O.W.
Not a prisoner of war
A prisoner of words
Like a soldier
I'm a fighter
Yet only a puppet
Mostly I only say
What you wanna hear
Could you take it if I came clear?
Or would you rather see me
Stoned on a drug of complacency and compromise
M.I.A.
I guess that's what I am
Scraping this cold earth
For a piece of myself
For peace in myself

It'd be easier if you put me in jail
If you locked me away
I'd have someone to blame
But these bars of steel are of my making
They surround my mind
And have me shaking
My hands are cuffed behind my back
I'm a prisoner of the worst kind, in fact
A prisoner of compromise
A prisoner of compassion
A prisoner of kindness
A prisoner of expectation
A prisoner of my youth
Run too fast to be old
I've forgotten what I was told
Ain't I a sight to behold?

A prisoner of age dying to be young
To my head is my hand with a gun
And it's cold and it's hard
Cause there's nowhere to run
When you've caged youself
By holding your tongue

I'm a prisoner
Of words unsaid
Just lonely feelings
Locked away in my head
It's like solitary confinement
Every time I stay quiet
I should start to speak
But I stop and stay silent
And now I've made
My own hard bed
Inside a prison of words unsaid

Dear Summer,

2009-01-09T16:30:00.001-05:00

I miss you. A LOT. Please hurry up and get to Northern Virginia ASAP. I realize it's only January. But I'm really not a big fan of the cold. Apparently, neither is my immune system. I guess it's bearable when you're looking forward to snow. Clean snow. Not the snow that gets all dirty, salty, and gross after the snowplows have had their way with it.

I can tolerate winter, and if there is one thing I can appreciate about this weather, it's boots. And maybe cute jackets. But I miss tube tops and sundresses. And "no pants days". Those are a little more difficult to deal with. Especially if you have to step outside. And I really don't like pants.

On top of that, you bring more excitement to my life. More things to do with friends. Amusement Parks. Beach trips. Better [and cheaper] date ideas. More hours of sunlight. The list goes on!

So, please, start pushing our friend Spring out the door. I'd really appreciate it. Thanks.

Love,
Geraldine